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Verisimilitude 

noun

1. the appearance or semblance of truth; likelihood; probability:

2. something, as an assertion, having merely the appearance of truth.

The Beginning

He was alone again. Waking up to a sweat that would get any normal person drunk on the smell alone. It had been at least a month since his last sober thought, although, no one could be sure how much time had been lost. Leaving the studio apartment at this point was completely out of the question. He knew he would die at some point, but that was the only certainty he had.

He needed to get out, but the thought of actually leaving the sanctuary in which he created made his head begin to spin. Trying to breathe with his heart starting to beat out of his chest. The kind of pulse you can feel in your ears. Shutting his eyes so tight he might lose them in the back of his skull. Everything whirled as the screeching pierced his ears.

Then it was over.

Nothing but silence and some hairs that he had pulled out dying in his hands. Pinching one of the hairs as if trying to squeeze the last bit of life out of it he started to see a little more clearly. His mind started to wake up and begin to make big plans, things to do, lives to live. Maybe today would be the day that he started what he was always meant to do.

So, he grabbed his bottle of vodka, took a healthy swig, and washed all those thoughts away.

Maybe tomorrow would be his day. Before he could finish the thought there was a light knock on the door.